I want to pull him close but also want space. I want to tell him everything that’s on my mind yet I don’t want to let him in. I miss him but I want the distance. I love him but I’m still scared. I’ve never been so sure yet so confused. Confused about what? I don’t even know. He just makes me a confused mess. I want to be myself around him yet I find myself holding back. I want this and that.